Happiness flow channel

I feel the most happy doing something I love. It might seem obvious but it's surprising how often I look for happiness in other areas. The only thing I could think about when reading this article was throwing. I've been working through some mental blocks with throwing lately and found it so applicable to this article! It is all about the balance between boredom and anxiety. If I have a bad throw, my first instinct is to get super down on myself and my reflex after that is to try to convince myself I don't care. Neither of these is good because I am either a. Super anxious or b. indifferent and lacking passion. Flipping between these emotions drove me to really question the sport I love and if I am constantly battling my mind, do I even love it at all? I can't say I have it all figured out but I am learning how to keep myself passionate and always striving to do better while still giving myself a break if I have an off day. It is so much easier said than done but I really think that is the balance between boredom and anxiety and the "flow channel".

"People who learn to control inner experience will be able to determine the quality of their lives, which is as close as many of us can come to being happy."

It seems like that would be so easy: just control your mind and you'll be happy! It's so much harder than one would think. As far as my project goes, I am excited by it but also really nervous that I am not going to have enough to show for my 16 weeks. The only thing to do about that at this point is keep working and pour myself into the project so I can continue to love it and rid myself of the anxiety that comes with it.